Newt (v1.44)

As of September 9, 2007: Reply

About 10 days ago I decided to move out of my parents house, drop out of college, and move in with my best friend in Victoria, BC, Canada. Reply

I currently live in Southwest Washington on a couple acres outside the small town of Chehalis. I have lived here for almost 4 years now. I live with my mother, father and our dog, cat, horses, henny, donkey, cows, and chickens. My sister doesn’t live with us anymore – she moved to Chiapas, Mexico, in January. Before this I lived in Wisconsin for 9 years, before that Chehalis for 2 years, and before that Venezuela, where I was born, for 2 years. In short: Reply

Venezuela 0-2
Washington 2-4
Wisconsin 4-13
Washington 13-now

I’ve been mainly unschooled except for a couple adventures in public school when I was 13-15. I passed my GED on December 1, 2005 and have attended Centralia Community College for the past 22 months (oh my gawd it’s been a long time!). I am half way done with my 2-year AA degree with an emphasis on graphic design – but I won’t be getting that just now since I’m moving to Canada. Reply

I am going to college for fall quarter, though: Creative Writing, Typography, CPR and a general lecture class. I switched the classes I was just taking to graduate with classes I really want to take since I’m not going to graduate anyhow. Reply

Camp: 2003: first session. 2004: first & second sessions. 2005: first and second sessions. 2006: first and second sessions. 2007: first and second sessions. Reply

And now I’m an old camper. And this was my last year. And now what? Now I start making every day of my life as close as I can to what camp has been for me. Reply

I call myself an artist…let me rephrase that: I am and artist. I just don’t actually sit down and do Art with a capital A very much. Reply

I used to write. A lot more than I do now. I’m trying to convince my soul to want to journal again. It’s being reluctant, but I think I’m winning. Reply

Reading over what was last on this page (check out the page archives), I realize this is totally still true even though I haven’t though about it in a while: My biggest irrational dislike is people who don't like Yoko Ono because she split up the Beatles. Reply

I also wrote that I was having a life crisis because my massage therapist told me I could no longer carry a back pack because my back was a mess. My back’s still a mess and I have gone back to carrying a backpack. Reply

I like humans a lot. When I talk to people, I think I focus on them intently, my eyes feel like they light up…perception, existence, pain, joy: how do you feel/understand it? I want to know. Reply

Musica: John Lennon, Noah Gunderson, Ani Difranco, Shawn Mullins, Tracy Chapman, John Denver, the Oakridge Boys, Johnny Cash, Joni Mitchell, Deana Carter, Dar Williams, the Waifs, the Goo Goo Dolls, the Beatles, Joan Baez, mixtapes, mix CDs, Cat Stevens, Neil Young, peace and justice songs! Reply

Authors: Francesca Lia Block, Kurt Vonnegut, Barbara Kingsolver. Reply

I would like to write stories and plots and characters like Kingsolver with the magic, metaphor and beauty of Block with the sarcasm, irony and spunky funkiness of Vonnegut. Reply

I would like to draw with the power of O’Keefe personal insight of Kahlo control of Warhol creativity and simplicity of Seuss Reply

Talk To Me About:

Sexuality! I’ve been a peer sex educator with Planned Parenthood for two years now. Lately, I’ve been really interested in people who choose not to have sex and why. I’m abstinent by choice and am realizing more and more how uncomfortable I am with healthy sexuality when it involves someone else.
Having been sexually abused and not remembering it.
Depression. I’ve been “depressed” for about 5 years now. I’ve been on and off antidepressants for 4 years. A lot of times “alternative” communities like camp are really anti-antidepressants because they are chemicals etc. I personally am all for antidepressants and love to talk about how positive of a thing they can be. I’ve done a little self harm. I’d been to two therapists and decided therapy didn’t work for me when I tried again and found someone who works for me and finally therapy is doing something for me. I love to talk about it. I've been on Prozac, Lexapro, Celexa, Wellbutrin and am currently on Cytomel and Lithium.
Looking older than your age. Going to community college when you’re 16. And how to feel good about being the age you are while doing things most people think are not age-appropriate. And other such things having do with age.
Not being excited about being female. Again, a lot of time in “alternative” communities like camp, it can be scary to say, “Uh, I actually don’t feel empowered or proud or ok with bleeding each month.” I don’t really mind being female, but I’m not crazy about it. I don’t feel goddess or earthy or anything like that.
Changing your name! Yay! My real name is Patti Jean. I don't identify with it in the least. It can be hard to explain and difficult to convince people, but changing your name can be empowering.
Moving out! That’s my big thing right now…which makes sense since I’m doing just that in 4 months.