Wherever a dancer stands ready, that spot is holy ground. ~Martha Graham Reply
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I am so delectably overwhelmed right now. I went on the web almost two hours ago to search for inspiring articles about chalking quotes on sidewalks and one thing led to another and another and another... Reply
There is goodness in this world. The dark can be so overwhelming, but there are people who care, people who are doing senseless acts of beauty. I want to change this world, and so do other people! I am not alone. What a sense of community. www.hopedance.org makes me squeak and shiver. also, hopemag.org & commondreams.org Reply
I was reading a great book tonight talking about how a lot of people concentrate on the bad too often. And I realized that I don't too often dig myself into the hole of depressing thoughts! I write one thing every day on my calendar that was good that day. I am so proud of myself. To concentrate on the good things in life can save you from depression. The closest I ever was to depression was almost 3 1/2 years ago. My mom suggested I make a list of things to do when I'm feeling down. And it brought me out of my hole. Reply
There are so many beautiful things in this world, so many beautiful people... You just have to search for them. But why do you have to search? I want the beauty to be right on the surface. I want to be able to read the newspaper and be filled with hope and joy, I want to be able to read the front cover without my heart breaking. I don't want to be scared of a piece of paper. I want to open the paper and see compassion and people reaching out. I don't want pain or anger or judgement or darkness. Reply
But if you search
you will find a world of beauty.
Reach out and you will discover that
you are not alone.
Dig under the surface
and you will find
an intricate web of tunnels
connecting people
working for change
working for peace
working for acceptance.
We are all connected
by threads, ropes, lace,
twinkling, spiraling
There are others like you, like me
others who crave the tenderness
and estatic joy
of life Reply
other happy things in my life: Alix Olson, my step-dad, pastels, water, my cat, stretching and dancing, Reply
9/20/04 I'm feeling wonderful. Period. Reply
For ya'll caught in the dilemna of where-do-i-go-to-college-? check out this kick ass college: http://www.newcollege.edu It is the New College of California, in San Francisco. Education for a Just, Sacred & Sustainable World.
If you want to go in 2-5 years let me know and we could get an apartment together! Reply
Word of the Day (right now i'm studying Etymology, the study of word origins): Absurd — the original meaning was musical, from the Latin absurdus
which means out of tune or harmony
Reply
Love, Maia Reply
the sun is shining and it is 65 degrees. my heart is singing. also, i have a library card from my new town and a thick stack of non-fiction books to read my heart out. happy happy happy. 3.9 Tuesday Reply
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and i'm wearing shorts. eek! Reply
(3-8) I am really obsessed with writing really beautiful and fun letters (especially to people I've never met.) But I've run out of ideas of who to write next. Anyone want a really cool letter? Reply
yay. Emma ~ i emailed you for your address & Geoffrey ~ i already have yours. (we used to write letters, remember? i was on amtrak 2002 session one) ~m~ Reply
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3-8-04 Life is... getting to see my sister, dad & grama in four days (my first greyhound trip)... being sore from working really hard in dance class and finishing almost half of my modern solo for spring performance... finishing my portion of Journal #2 of the JournalProject... having a runny nose... watching Star Wars Episode IV for the first time... feeling very much supported and loved by my mom, step-dad, and father... reading The Descent of Woman by Elaine Morgan (1972 bestseller that offers a new view of who's who in the evolution of the human race...
) The excerpt below is talking about how easy it would have been if organs had been available thru a evolutionary mail-order catalog. Reply
Dear Sir, Am returning fur coat as I have no use for it after all; kindly exchange for 1 pr. earlobes and 14 lbs. subcutaneous fat. The corrugator muscles arrived safely and are satisfactory, but both the brain and the penis are 3 sizes too small for present needs, please replace. I could also used a nose, if you have any in stock. And oblige, Yrs., N. Ape Reply
(and a note from his wife) Reply
P.S. Lately my husband has changed his habits and I find the tickly bit of
my vagina is now on the wrong side. Have you got a newer model. Thanking you
in anticipation.
2/27/04: I feel really odd. For years I've believe that farandolae existed. (From Madeliene L'Engle's book A Wind in the Door, extremely small beings that live within the mitochondria of human beings.) I just found out that they do not exist, which is why, whenever I've tried to explain them to people, they always had no clue what I was talking about. I really loved farandolae. I feel almost sad that they don't exist, it's like I just found Santa Claus isn't for real...or the tooth fairy...or the Easter bunny. :( I think I will still believe in them anyway. Screw the real world
. Reply
In my mitochondria there are little beings that are called farandolae who
can sing with the stars, and without them I would not be alive.
*wanders off feeling a bit odd, but happy*
Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
Harold Whitman
today was uber fun! i hung out with my friends all day which was great because this whole last week i was kind of isolated because of my cold. oh yes, and i am once again reminded of why i like living in a small town: there's this thing called community. not that you can't have it within a big town, but it seems to be really apparent here. love, peanut butter & paints...Maia Reply
Thanks for your well wishes. Today I feel so much better! I'm actually able to think! Reply
I want to wish everyone a very happy Friday the 13th!!! May this day bring you much luck and good fortune. It was cool to see that the three people who answered my IHaveAQuestion didn't believe that it was an unlucky day. This totally stupid superstition I think was brought on by basically two (maybe more) things: 1: 13 is associated with goddess-culture. there are generally 13 menstrual cycles in in a year, as there is lunar cycles. when patriarchial society took over I think they rejected the number 13, as they rejected women and their blood. and witch's covens (traditionally) have 13 members. 2: the ancient Egyptians believed that they lived 12 stages in their life and the 13th stage was in the glorious afterlife. others who came after them, associated it with a fear of death, rather than a reverence for the afterlife. Also: Friday was the day when Eve and Adam were thrown out of Eden for tasting the fruit of Knowledge. and Jesus was crucified on a Friday, the night after he had the Last Supper with his disciples, at a table with 13 people. Reply
Okay, that's it. Just something to think about. Post any thoughts. Love, teddy bears, & poetry... Maia Reply
I am sick. I have a 101-103 degree fever, chills, aches, runny nose, sore throat, cough, and everything is fuzzy. I haven't been able to properly function since Monday morning. This sucks. My brain is going crazy because I've had absolutely no mental stimulation and all my ideas for projects are useless because I have no energy. My body is going crazy because, although it has no energy to move except between the couch & the bathroom, it dreams of skipping rope under the blue blue sky we had today. My reality is altered — I am living without viola, dance, orchestra, work, academics, play. No energy. This just plain sucks. Reply
On the other hand: for those that don't know — my mom got married (to a super cool man) two weeks ago and so we moved into a house (my email address has changed) and... I now have one red wall in my bedroom. This is sooooo awesome. Reply
Please send me your healing thoughts. Love, love, love, Maia Reply
Maia!!!! get better soon!!! Sick Maia is not a happy Maia and thats just not cool. Congratulations on you mom's marraige! My mom just remarried a little less than a year ago. I would love to talk to you about your feelings on the subject. I love you!!! Im sending you every inch of healing power I have. rest, eat garlic, take ginger baths and try and have someone read to you. love love love—-breetel Reply
Oh no! Being sick really really sucks, drink lots of tea and sleep a lot. I hope you feel better soon! I'll be thinking of you. *hugs* —Robin Reply
1/13/03 i'm writing in a new journal. this makes me happy.
it's spiral bound 6 1/2 by 8 inches with lined pages, which is a total different feel because my last one was 8 1/2 by 11 with blank pages. it's beautiful. the cover has the Maya Angelou quote i posted below on it and the inside pages are white with perfectly spaced green lines. i love the feeling of all these blank pages to be filled with myself. -maia Reply
Creativity is endless and ceaseless. Reply
It lives everywhere all the time. Reply
-Maya Angelou Reply
You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For A Hundred Miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.
Mary Oliver
1.9.04 My sister is incredibly beautiful today. She is being present with herself, which means that I can connect with her and she is loving towards me. I love her so much right now. Reply
my life rocks! yesterday i cried for like an hour which allowed me to let go of all the anxieties and pressures and worries that have been pounding by brain for the last couple weeks. i now feel this incredible freedom. {how can these two eyes hold so many tears...} i have finally found a balance in my life, between living in the here-and-now, doing what i want when i want how i want; and working towards reaching goals, not closing doors on my future. Reply
i'm also realizing how thereputic writing poetry is. yes! i've been writing more and more poems lately, so i feel really in touch with myself. Reply
yup. wishing you spicy chocolate, inviting libraries, & gorgeous sunsets. i love you, maia Reply
you need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star. -nietzsche Reply
11/15 ~ Oh My God. at camp, my advisee group wrote letters to ourselves on the last day, and today i got it!! eek. it's strange and beautiful to remember the feeling at camp. it's slowly been slipping away. the acceptance, love, and inspiration. hmm... the letter makes me sad, because it will be many months before i can feel that again; but i'm also estatic because in the letter i wrote down my general goals for this year, so now i have lots to look foward to! ah. ~Maia, tired and sick but happy Reply
11/14 ~ I was walking to work yesterday, and I ran into Robin, it was so cool! Yeah, I am busy busy busy, with work, dance, & viola. Wheee! I love my life so much. Except I miss being with other unschoolers. Thank god for wiki. love, Maia Reply
November 5 (23 October 2003) Reply
I ponder the thought
of being who I never was
I have watched a life slip out of my grasp
for I chose a different path
I catch glimpses now
of a me that never was
glimpses of the potential me
who I am not
that life, that path
never seemed quite real, valid enough
more like an interlude,
a connecting path between
the life of a child, and
the life of an adolescent
it's strange, to ponder the thought
of a me that could have been
but it is just as well that
I chose this path,
because I am glad to be
me, as I am now
November 4 (10 August 2003) Reply
when i am writing
my soul opens
spirits soar
fly out to explore, inspire, learn
feelings of pure beauty, peace, calm
connected to all breaths
let loose
let the energy flow through me
are these my words or God's?
inspiration comes
i write.
i feel at home.
November 1 (13 October 2003) Reply
you no longer exist
but my mind holds onto wisps of memories
i was you you was i, we were together a meiyouwesheus
you are a me from the past
a lonely, misguided girl
you tried your best to please everyone else
were constantly comparing yourself
stupid little you
you created pain
but i cannot be angry with you for long
you were the best you could be
so i hold you
and we cry together
our tears hold the pain, the hopes dreams intentions of a little girl
as the tears flow out of myherour bodies
iwe heal
I love... modern dance. libraries. little kids. giving hugs. stretching. languages (especially Italian). writing letters. toe socks. spicy chocolate. backpacking. journaling. believing. warm pajamas. credo-building. collaging. taking naps. sunrises. unschoolers. viola. soul-searching. running in the rain. quotes. laughing. caramel frappecinos. you. Reply
Favorite movies... Princess Bride, Finding Nemo, Birdcage, Dead Poet's Society, Center Stage, Hair, Chocolat, Ocean's 11, & Emperor's New Groove Reply
Favorite music... Evanescense, Coldplay, Verve Pipe, Sidhe, Right Said Fred, & Red Hot Chili Peppers Reply
Favorite authors & books... Daniel Quinn (Ishamel), Grace Llewellyn (TLH), Benjamin Hoff (Te of Piglet & Tao of Pooh), Richard Bach (One & Bridge Across Forever & more), Monica Furlong (Wise Child), Natalie Goldberg (Wild Mind & Thunder and Lightening), S.A.R.K. (Inspiration Sandwich & all the rest), Francesca Lia Block (Weetzie Bat & Witch Baby) & Madeliene L'Engle (Ring of Endless Light & all the rest) Reply
I believe in... magic. compassion. faith. change. love. miracles. destiny. Reply
I know about/like learning about... homebirth & midwifery, sustainable agriculture, Italian & other languages, groovy unschooler-friendly colleges, radical menstruation, credo-building, Unitarian Universalism, Non-Violent Communication/ Reply
I am afraid of... death. losing myself. growing up. big changes./ Reply
SqueezeMaia if you want to make me happy Reply
Comments... tell me you love me... offer advice... Reply
Maia, your awsome. Im in the midst of writing you a letter right now..hehe. Oh, and my sister Davi, is obsessed with that Mary Oliver quote, she takes a coreography class and incorported it into one of the dances she made. love love love—breetel Reply
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